The Gray Areas.

Here we go again: SEASON CHANGE, both literally and metaphorically. I call this, the gray area. The area where you are not quite sure what is reality! Do you ever get into a strange sort of stupor, where you can not put your fingers on what you are feeling, nor where to start?  You know, the place where you are barely meeting the consciousness threshold, but yet you feel all of your senses in overdrive? Hmmm... here I ponder with pursed lips, this state of being. Why must life be consistently hazy? You must sometimes wish that life had contact lens to clarify all this murkiness.

The troublesome thing with gray areas, is that their color is absolutly, dreadful, dreary, depressing, deficient, and void of definite feelings. But thank God gray areas are only temporary! When seasons are changing it can be a little awkward at first, barren trees, strange looking buds, not fully frozen nor free flowing H2O molecules, but eventually seasons develop into a wholesome, fully blossomed flower, lush & over bearing trees, whole icicles or a liberated lake free of any. You see it is our job to add a little shape and body to the colorless blob! But you can not help but ask yourself, "what in the world am I to add and why are there so many decisions to be made, and why do I keep tripping over my follies?!" Lovely, how human we are! It is true we have follies, but perhaps, we have more strengths?! Strengths that can pull us through into this new season. Hope that can pull our blob into some tangible shape that we can recognize. Aspirations and dreams that do not need to take any kind of typical, clichéd, shape, but, instead, will form your blob and create it into a shape that is its own. How interesting would it be to create a whole new kind of geometrical figure, of which no one in the world could figure, nor imagine possible, but YOU get to share and educate the world on this new shapen blob!

As for the threshold of consciousness, I think you just have to push through with your best effort and at some point you'll realize that you've been completely conscious the whole time. Make decisions with both your heart and mind. I believe there needs to be an equlibrium between the two, and I think the philosophical Chinese would be in agreement with me on the whole balanced thing, which means what I'm saying is legit. Your Yin and Yang should be balanced.